One Door Closes…

Becoming Surefooted is a blog that chronicles my own personal growth. Well, I just achieved a major milestone in my life and I am celebrating it despite the circumstances. The circumstance is being back on the job market; but the milestone is having a new found confidence. I’ve prayed and hoped for this “can do” attitude for many years. Yes, it’s very hard going back to the job hunting, but I won’t let it defeat me. While I don’t know where I’m going to end up, the person who just sat there waiting around is NOT me anymore. In fact, I have a new end goal.

A while back I had another goal which was to travel and possibly joining YWAM. While I still want to travel, God hasn’t given me any peace about joining YWAM just yet. This new end goal is career-focused. I’m feeling pretty confident in this. Now, I understand that this may just be a feeling and feelings fade. I just hope that the fire doesn’t fade. Yes, there will be more setbacks and discouragements, that’s life. Hopefully I will respond the same way when I said goodbye to my previous job. I smiled and said thanks for the growth.

For the record, this confidence doesn’t fully come from me. I need to thank God for building this fire in me. He promised to give me a future and I believe it… for the first time since college.

~AJ

It was an Honor

On Friday, a group of co-workers and I got to spend the day serving three sweet elderly ladies in our community. This was part of the Kind at Heart ministries which help those in need, particularly the elderly and disabled. The ministry works to serve those who need help with house/yard upkeep in order for them to keep living independently. Last month, I was able to helped them out with another group of co-workers and I loved it. It was such an honor to work with them again. We worked on the land, mowing, clearing out the yard, planting, etc. We also worked on inside the houses, cleaning bathrooms and kitchens, dusting, etc.

It was hard work. Despite this, the reward of showing God’s love is more than worth it. It’s a reminder that we, as abled bodied people, are blessed and are called extend a helping hand to those in need. This ministry is a true example of James 1:27 – “Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world.”

I thank God for this ministry and pray for their continuation and success. I thank God for the elderly. They are precious and sadly, often forgotten in the world.

Hinds’ Feet

This week I’ve decided to start my second attempt at reading “Hinds’ Feet on High Places” by Hannah Hurnard. This book is a big inspiration for this blog.

The story is meant to be an allegory for a personal journey to “becoming as surefooted as a deer”. It follows a character, Much-Afraid, and her journey through the mountains and to the “Realm of Love”. During my first attempt at this, I didn’t finish because I got distracted. It was during a difficult period where time was devoted to escaping reality rather than facing it. This is a daily struggle. However, this concept and verse always stuck with me. So I decided to try reading it again and complete it.

Given the blog’s name, I thought posting about the readings would keep me accountable.

Here goes nothing…

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I John 4:18 – “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.”

1 Month Update

Not so good on updating anymore, sorry.

This month I’ve realized two things. 1) The S3 phone is pretty cool even though it’s almost 3 years old. It’s good enough for me. I may be the techie of the family, but there’s no need to get the newest and latest tech. 2) My attitude needs to be fixed.

For the past month since getting the temp job at the local big business, I’ve noticed a change in attitude and I don’t like it. And I know where it’s rooted (fear of failure and rejection) and where it will go (self-sabotage actions).

Luckily, I’ve caught myself on multiple occasions before I did something stupid. Now that I’ve identified this, it’ll be easier to get back on track.

Here’s my new mantra; I will get hired. I will succeed. My eyes are set on a goal.

My Tech Splurge…. 1st World Problems

Every year, normally at the beginning, I splurge on some tech. This happened since 2009/2010. It’s normally not a massive splurge but a splurge no less. I rarely buy things for myself outside of extra food, cell phone bill, gas, etc. Money is something I worked hard for and I don’t like wasting it. Giving tithes is even a challenge, but that’s something I want to work on.

With that said, this week I spent my yearly splurge on a new phone. Up to now, I had this very basic phone for a couple of years. it’s fine, it does what it’s designed to do, calling and texting. But for the longest time, I had my eyes on a smartphone. To some people, it seems pretty crazy. Man, you don’t have a smartphone!? What’s up with that?! That’s weird. And to them, I said, I don’t need one. And, to be honest, I don’t. I wanted one, but need is another thing. In fact, buyer’s remorse kicked in the day after it was bought.

Why did I buy something so unnecessary? Sure, it has a camera that you’ve been dying for and apps that you’d love but really, there’s no need for it.

In fact, I got a phone with a horrible deal which only strengthens the buyer’s remorse. I saved $100 dollars on the phone, but come to find out the data plan is fixed to 500mb (double it for 5$ more) for 30 days which means monitoring is crucial. The other deal I found had 3gb for the same data price but the phone would be $250 extra and at that price, I would’ve gotten a newer phone. I just CANNOT for the life of me justify spending $400-$600 [including accessories] on a frikkin’ phone*.

*sigh*

So I am stuck.

Maybe I’m being spoiled and ungrateful and I hope my heart changes because underneath it all I’m really excited about this phone. I can finally, finally take pictures of moments that I want to capture. I can use Instagram and Pandora without looking like a tool. Taking pictures and carrying around an iPad everywhere just looks stupid. I can use “Couch to 5k” the running app and different other apps. I can finally check email and go online without needing a magnifying glass for the 2-inch screen on the old phone.

My mind might change once I’ve used it.

*prepaid phones

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Update: I’ve had a little bit of time to play with this. I like it. I was being spoiled and scared thanks to bad reviews. But so far this phone is pretty sweet. And the plan was different than advertised. It is 1GB. But I’m still watching it like s hawk.

I got a case and so that’s even better.

Happy 2015

Wow, it’s been almost 2 months since my last post. I feel bad because it wasn’t my intention to stop. I just wanted to take a break but now that it’s late-January, it’s time to get back to the grind.

Speaking of routine, working on a full-time schedule has been a great thing for me. In fact, for the past 2-3 days I’ve been sick with the stomach bug. It’s nasty. I’m just laying in bed praying to God that I’ll have time to make it to the bathroom. It’s NOT fun. I’m just bored. I spent most of my time this weekend sleeping and watching multiple TV shows… barely.

The stomach bug is probably the worst thing I’ve experienced in a long time. I’d take my usual upper respiratory infection over this crud.

Oh well,

Happy extremely belated New Year’s to Becoming Surefooted. I pray that this year will be a fruitful one.