Last week, I mentioned about new possibilities to look into with one of them being YWAM. While I don’t want to say anything is concrete, it’s a stronger possibility every day. In my correspondence with one of the campuses, I am getting eager about traveling to a new city and meeting/ministering to new people.
There are many questions and doubts. What if it’s really not for me? What about finances and future jobs? If I go, there will be a huge gap in my resume. What if, after all that, I still don’t know about my passions? I’m nervous about being older than most of the YWAMers. In fact, the biggest insecurity at the moment is not meeting my expectations as an adult.
Upon reading Jesus Calling, I am reminded that my journey is suppose to look different than others and their journey will look different than mine.
Pour all of your energy into trusting Me. It is through trust that you stay connected to Me, aware of My Presence. Every step on your life-journey can be a step of faith. Baby steps of trust are simple for you; you can take them with almost unconscious ease. Giant steps are another matter altogether: leaping across chasms in semidarkness, scaling cliffs of uncertainty, trudging through the valley of the shadow of death. These feats require sheer concentration, as well as utter commitment to Me.
Each of My children is a unique blend of temperament, giftedness, and life experiences. Something that is a baby step for you may be a giant step for another person, and vice versa. Only I know the difficulty or ease of each segment of your journey. Beware of trying to impress others by acting as if your giant steps are only baby ones. Do not judge others who hesitate, in trembling fear, before an act that would be easy for you. If each of My children would seek to please Me above all else, fear of others’ judgments would vanish, as would attempts to impress others. Focus your attention on the path just ahead of you and on the One who never leaves your side.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. – Psalm 23:4
“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use; it will be measured to you.” – Matthew 7:1-2
Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe. – Proverbs 29:25
— September 25th, Jesus Calling
I don’t know what will happen but through prayer and guidance, I feel more sure about this every day.