First 2 Days

I MADE IT! It’s hard to believe that the time is here. I can’t believe it. I am nervous and already had my cry. It was the tired and stress relief cry. It was all my anxiety and lies of the enemy that came fresh into my mind. It’s so good to cry. While those things still come to mind, they aren’t as loud as they used to be. I try not to dwell on them as much. I’m sure there will be more challenges. Right now, I’m way too excited to be here to make a proper adjustment. Just wait til 3 weeks from now.

Just being here reminds me that the Lord is faithful in His promises even when I wasn’t faithful time and time again. It’s a little embarrassing how long it took me to get that He wasn’t going to let me down. I was angry at Him for life circumstances and yet He still said, “Wait, I’ve got this.” because He knew better than I. I am so thankful to be here and I don’t want to waste a single minute.

I don’t have much of an update but I do have prayer requests.

  • Pray for me as I’m learning about who God is and His heart. To be honest, I already know some of what we’ve learned and felt prideful about it. I caught myself several times already in class today thinking, “yeah yeah, I know this…” I’ve had to quiet my thoughts. “Yes, you do already know this but what else can you learn?” Sure enough, I learned a few new things.
  • Pray that I can find the quiet moments when I’m busy doing “work duties”. Pray that my work duties partner will also find the quiet moments. Yes they make us work. Honestly, it’s something that I need to learn. Yes, I’ve been in the work force but there is something to be gained in the doing manual labor.
  • Speaking of manual labor, pray that God will give me supernatural strength. Being anemic, I need every strength that’s available for this season.
  • Pray also for opportunities to reach out to people and that I’ll be bold. There are times where I want to speak but I’m scared.
  • Pray for the girls and guys here. Most of them are fresh out of high school and college and a lot of them are on their own for the first time. Pray for comfort and peace. It’s a scary but necessary step.

Thanks for your prayers and support. I still need it. If anyone want to support me, you can email me at johnsona88@gmail.com for more info.

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From Houston to Tyler

One and a half weeks after announcing that I was going to Houston, I got an update on the situation. Hurricane Harvey flooded out our building. Now, the team will move to the main base in Tyler, TX. Since then, I am actually more excited.

Despite the desire to go into a large city, I remained hesitant. I hesitated that I could do it and worried if the sudden change from Smalltown to Megacity would be good. While I was excited to do something drastic and new, I think what I really need is a time away to reflect and hear from God. Suddenly I got an email saying that they changed the plans. Like a breath of fresh air, I felt so lightweight. God knew what I needed more than I did.  Maybe one day I’ll get my wish of living in a large city but for now this is good.

So here are some of the details:

On October 1, I travel to Tyler, TX to begin my classes. We will have lectures and training. For some people, they learn practical skills on the base that will help them minister to others internationally. As for my school, the focus is on large megacities. Since we can’t be in a large megacity during this phase, I imagine we’ll travel a lot. We will help with some of the recovery in Houston among other things. During this phase, 3 months, we will learn some fundamentals of what it means to be a Christian, be strong in your faith and how to reach out to others.

After the 3 months, we will travel to a city to apply what we learned in the classroom. This is still an unknown because the location is picked during the lecture phase. From my understanding, it will be a busy but blessed time. And I am praying for divine appointments. I want to see people encounter God and I want to encounter God like never before.

It is time for a new season of life and I’m praying that it will change my life. I sat too long on the sidelines (literally) waiting, scared that it might be a mistake and that it isn’t for me. Anxious thoughts and fear plagued me for too long. This is a huge risk for me because I normally sit in the background, quiet and unassuming. I don’t like to draw attention to myself (yet, I have this blog, haha).

At any rate, pray for everyone on the team. Pray that the finances will come in for everyone including myself. Pray for those in Houston, Florida and the Caribbean who were affected by the hurricanes and flooding. Pray that they will feel God’s love and comfort.

If you want to know more about this or help me with finances, please contact me: johnsona88@gmail.com.

 

New Season- YWAM

Two years ago, I wrote about my desire to be career-oriented. Now, it’s much different. A lot has changed and my heart has changed.

About 3 years ago, I had this stirring in my heart to go into missions. Every time I listened to missionaries in church sharing their stories, there’s been this longing to join them. But I squashed that dream, thinking that that life wasn’t for me. Well, now, God has change my heart.

After years of fear and anxiety, I’ve decided to go forth and join a missions organization called YWAM or Youth With a Mission. This organization helps train people to learn to share the love of God with others as well as help grow in their own walk with God.

They have several bases around the world and the one I’m joining is in Houston. As most of you know, Houston is in the midst of the aftermath from the hurricane and flooding. People are displaced and hurting. This is an opportunity to love and serve them.

I’ll be releasing more info in the coming days. This is just an announcement.

I’d appreciate your prayers as there is little time to prepare. It starts on October 1.

Thanks

One Door Closes…

Becoming Surefooted is a blog that chronicles my own personal growth. Well, I just achieved a major milestone in my life and I am celebrating it despite the circumstances. The circumstance is being back on the job market; but the milestone is having a new found confidence. I’ve prayed and hoped for this “can do” attitude for many years. Yes, it’s very hard going back to the job hunting, but I won’t let it defeat me. While I don’t know where I’m going to end up, the person who just sat there waiting around is NOT me anymore. In fact, I have a new end goal.

A while back I had another goal which was to travel and possibly joining YWAM. While I still want to travel, God hasn’t given me any peace about joining YWAM just yet. This new end goal is career-focused. I’m feeling pretty confident in this. Now, I understand that this may just be a feeling and feelings fade. I just hope that the fire doesn’t fade. Yes, there will be more setbacks and discouragements, that’s life. Hopefully I will respond the same way when I said goodbye to my previous job. I smiled and said thanks for the growth.

For the record, this confidence doesn’t fully come from me. I need to thank God for building this fire in me. He promised to give me a future and I believe it… for the first time since college.

~AJ

It was an Honor

On Friday, a group of co-workers and I got to spend the day serving three sweet elderly ladies in our community. This was part of the Kind at Heart ministries which help those in need, particularly the elderly and disabled. The ministry works to serve those who need help with house/yard upkeep in order for them to keep living independently. Last month, I was able to helped them out with another group of co-workers and I loved it. It was such an honor to work with them again. We worked on the land, mowing, clearing out the yard, planting, etc. We also worked on inside the houses, cleaning bathrooms and kitchens, dusting, etc.

It was hard work. Despite this, the reward of showing God’s love is more than worth it. It’s a reminder that we, as abled bodied people, are blessed and are called extend a helping hand to those in need. This ministry is a true example of James 1:27 – “Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world.”

I thank God for this ministry and pray for their continuation and success. I thank God for the elderly. They are precious and sadly, often forgotten in the world.

Hinds’ Feet

This week I’ve decided to start my second attempt at reading “Hinds’ Feet on High Places” by Hannah Hurnard. This book is a big inspiration for this blog.

The story is meant to be an allegory for a personal journey to “becoming as surefooted as a deer”. It follows a character, Much-Afraid, and her journey through the mountains and to the “Realm of Love”. During my first attempt at this, I didn’t finish because I got distracted. It was during a difficult period where time was devoted to escaping reality rather than facing it. This is a daily struggle. However, this concept and verse always stuck with me. So I decided to try reading it again and complete it.

Given the blog’s name, I thought posting about the readings would keep me accountable.

Here goes nothing…

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I John 4:18 – “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.”